The first time Lori Tipton tried MDMA, she was skeptical it would make a difference.

“I really was, at the beginning, very nervous,” Tipton said.

MDMA is the main ingredient in the club drug known as ecstasy or molly. But Tipton wasn’t taking pills sold on the street to get high. She was trying to treat her post-traumatic stress disorder by participating in a clinical trial.

After taking a dose of pure MDMA, Tipton lay in a quiet room with two specially trained psychotherapists. They sat next to her as she recalled some of her deepest traumas, such as discovering her mother’s body after Tipton’s mother killed two people and then herself in a murder-suicide.

“In the embrace of MDMA,” Tipton said, she could revisit that moment without the usual terror and panic. “I was able to find such empathy for myself.”

Scientists are testing how pharmaceutical-grade MDMA can be used in combination with psychotherapy to help patients with a severe form of PTSD that has not responded to other treatments. Unlike street drugs, which may be adulterated and unsafe, researchers use a pure, precisely dosed form of the drug.

MDMA is not yet available as a treatment for PTSD outside of clinical trials. But proponents are aiming for approval by the Food and Drug Administration, which granted breakthrough therapy status to MDMA-assisted psychotherapy in 2017.

Researchers are conducting Phase 3 clinical trials at more than a dozen sites. Clinicians who treat PTSD are hopeful the next round of trials will show that MDMA treatment is an effective option to relieve patient suffering.

“The problem is we haven’t had a new drug to treat PTSD in over 17 years,” said Dr. Sue Sisley, a physician and president of the Scottsdale Research Institute, based in Arizona. “There are certain illnesses that are just intractable and not responsive to traditional therapy, and we need to start thinking more broadly.”

But MDMA is a Schedule I controlled substance, which means it currently has no accepted medical use and has a “high potential for abuse” (something that MDMA’s therapeutic proponents dispute). Because of that designation, the current research trials are privately funded by the Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies, or MAPS.

Tipton struggled for years with PTSD before she was treated with MDMA. She said life with PTSD was like “seeing the world through dirty goggles.”

“Anywhere I would feel unsafe,” the 40-year-old from New Orleans said. “I would feel like I had to always be vigilant because if I didn’t, something bad was going to happen.”

Tipton described her 20s as a catalog of tragedy and trauma. It began when her brother fatally overdosed in her home. After his death, she began caring for her mother, who struggled with mental illness. In 2005, Tipton’s mother killed two people and then herself. Tipton discovered their bodies.

As the years went by, Tipton had panic attacks and terrible anxiety. She tried everything to treat her symptoms: talk therapy, antidepressants, hypnotherapy, meditation and yoga. Nothing worked. She went through life exhausted and apathetic, constantly triggered and struggling to be intimate with people close to her.

Then Tipton enrolled in the Phase 2 clinical trials for MDMA-assisted psychotherapy.

MDMA was first synthesized in 1912, and its therapeutic benefits were studied in the 1970s. But those efforts stalled when the U.S. federal government – in light of the growing popularity of ecstasy as a recreational drug – designated it a Schedule I drug in 1985.

In recent years, research has resumed, funded by private sponsors such as MAPS.

The treatment protocol in the current trial calls for a 12-week course of psychotherapy with specially trained therapists. During that time, there are two or three daylong sessions, which begin with the patient taking a calibrated dose of MDMA in pill form.

A team of two therapists, generally one man and one woman, then guide the patient through the eight-hour MDMA “session.” Later, there’s follow-up talk therapy, without the drug, to help the patient process feelings, thoughts or impressions that came up while under the influence of the drug.

“MDMA allows you to contact feelings and sensations in a much more direct way,” said Saj Razvi, a Colorado-based psychotherapist who was a clinical investigator in the Phase 2 trials.

How MDMA works in the brain is not completely understood. The psychoactive drug boosts chemicals like serotonin and oxytocin. It also tamps down activity in the amygdala, a part of the brain that processes fear. This may lead to a state characterized by heightened feelings of safety and social connection.

“Trauma happens in isolation,” Razvi said. “One of the things that MDMA does is, really, lets you know that you are not alone.”

After the Phase 2 trials of MDMA-assisted treatments concluded in 2017, researchers found that 54 percent of the 72 patients who took MDMA had improved to the point that they no longer fit the diagnosis for PTSD (compared with 23 percent in the control group).

And the beneficial effects of the treatment appeared to increase over time. A year later, the number who no longer had PTSD had risen to 68 percent.

“That was astonishing,” Sisley said. “Even with the best pharmaceutical regimen, you rarely ever see patients go into remission.”

Tipton describes her treatment with MDMA as transformative.

She was able to let go of the troubling feelings surrounding her mother’s death. And, she unearthed other memories, too, feelings of joy that had been sealed away.

A year later, she was reassessed and no longer qualified as having PTSD. Tipton said she believes the treatment saved her life.

“Everything is at my fingertips for me in a way that it never was before,” she said. “I want that for everybody.”